I had kinda thought that the reason she stopped saying "okay that's nice in theory but how do I actually do it" was that she understood how. Apparently it's just that she had come to expect that when talking to me that part will "magically" work out, and didn't want to mess with a good thing.
yeah the first few times the intention of trying something made it work kinda baffled me. I did actually spend some time trying to figure it out at some point, and then got worried that in doing that I'd fuck it up. I sort of tossed it in the bin of "meh sometimes the subconscious is just way smarter than the conscious" which is a handy wastebasket diagnosis, and just was happy its a thing.
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yeah, like seriously the discussion last night about signal to noise makes all the theoretical sense in the world, and all the sense practically when dealing with electronics, but trying to translate that into a practical difference today... like it doesn't make sense. Nothing about that conversation should have been easier to implement than [my jiu jitsu instructor] constantly telling us to stop thinking so damn much. But it was very different. And no, that doesn't make alot of sense to me how my brain translates that discussion into doing what I've been trying and failing at doing for months now. But I'm actually pretty ok with it not making sense. Because it works, and it works well and efficiently and seems to only be getting better. So given the trajectory, not messing with it seems the appropriate choice. I can always go overanalyze it to death later on if I hit a sticking point where "magic" doesn't work.
I told her then that I'd give her an answer, and kinda forgot to do it until recently. I figured it actually makes sense and is a decent explanation even without further context, so here it is:
